Ripped overalls with pockets full of broke.
Brown bag full of sorrows, and hopes full of let downs. Banned from
society, outcast from the world. You the dreamer no longer dream, but
only hope to find where this old dirt road leads. You walk with pride, as
your knees fucken scream with pain. Holes in your shoes like holes in
your heart, shot from the gun of loved ones and sprayed by the machine gun of
life. You still stand, I still write, we still walk, we still carry on as
our blood shot eyes fill with dirt and our hair with exhaust from passing
trucks. The smell from the black fumes reminds us of home. It reminds us of
hiding spots while parents fought, closets full of coats and umbrellas that
came alive and comforted us as a crying child. The dark is safe, the
light is open. A cigarette brings back James Dean, as the 3 legged dog
morphs into a strutting cheetah. Messy hair from falling fast, soon combs
back like a wet comb as we fall forward. A chip off the old black that
could get a cargo ship lost in its depth. A middle finger cold and
frozen, stuck high from seeing so many stuck up. Red knuckles and
permanent damage from fist to wall, hate to self-pain, and frustration to must
figure something out or else. No money to spend, but a fuck load to gain.
No future, but a hope to one day look back at the past. A dying
want, with nothing to feel, a fight deep down, that seems to only roll in the
belly of hunger and a mind of dizzy as the lack of sleep drains your thoughts.
Homeless with no home, loneliness with no one, empty and ready to fill
the void that is restless within you.
An old abandoned warehouse lies in ruins at the end
of this dirt road. The green grass slowly turned into burnt rubber, while
the smell rose dark and the backward town seemed hidden but visible from where
he was standing. The once blue sky turned yellow, as black clouds traced
through like arrows being shot by a thousand gladiators. The graffiti on
the walls of the broken warehouse dripped like tears, while the windows closed
like fear. A street sign that reads welcome, as the five-story warehouse
quietly whispers turn around. Wind that talked, and weeds that grew so
high they wrapped around the man's ankles. His cigarette burnt his
fingers, making him jump and say, "ouch!" a necessary reaction.
He whipped his hands against his orphaned overalls, while his head turned
like a spinning top trying to figure out what and where his windy dirt path had
taken him. A small child appeared randomly by the front door of the
warehouse entrance. Probably 4'9 and 180 pounds of muscle. She was
strong and confident, wide-eyed and alive. A tall and skinny man walked
up behind her with his eyes never unlocking from the overall scavenger that
found himself now surrounded by at least two dozen men, women and children.
A complete circle was formed, smooth and fast, out of the dark shadows
they appeared. A few more from the warehouse, even a handful climbing
down the black trees that were bent and fallen but perfect for climbing and
tree forts. The dirt below his feet was grey ash that slowly fell from
the sky as if winter time during Christmas. Memories of the once good
times in his life passed over his face, before realizing they were and have
been dead for many years. His overalls slapped back and forth from the
wind that swooped up and over the cliff in front of him. It seemed as if
the world literally ended 100 feet from the broken warehouse. He started
to lean his head up and to the side as if he was a kid in a car seat trying to
see out the windshield in front of him. He was suddenly awakened from his
thoughts and curious adventure, a mental adventure on top of a real life
adventure. It was hard to faze the man that walked the dirt road with
torn cloths and eyes filled with abandonment. His chip held a lack of
surprise, while a tender and sensitive feeling of sadness created a shock wave
of constant depression. But this......this gingerbread house in the
middle of the black forest made his heart beat for the first time in years.
His lungs filled back up with air, and then the silence broke.
A little girl broke the circle and sprinted towards
the man's leg. Her mother ran after her with her arms out as if trying to
catch a chicken. A panic took over the mother, but soon came to ease as
she saw the little girl and the man talking to each other in a safe an ancient
whisper. The little girl said, "Hello", and the man said,
"Well, hi". He looked down at her glassy brown eyes and asked
what her name was. She responded by not answering the question, but
instead saying "Their are many bad days in this forest where the dirt path
meets, but my mom says that if we keep training hard we can make it to the
promise land". He looked up to the mother who stood a respectable
distance away, while still being motherly. She looked back at the man
with no emotion, only her hair in the wind, and the men behind her who looked
like monsters with beards of strength and legs of trees. The women looked
like lions, fast and furious, strong and hard working. These people
didn't look like the normal folk, they looked as if they.......well........they
looked like him. Holey clothes with ripped hands. Sad faces with
hungry souls. Dry marks from tears, under a brain full of motivation.
The only difference from the man in the middle of the circle in the burnt
black forest on the edge of the world and the strong people is that they looked
like they had found something to be motivated for, while he stood empty handed.
He looked down at his hands with his forehead crinkled tight, while his
eyes pierced down looking for something that should be resting like home in the
palms of his hands. But nothing, for the people around them had
something. The little girl tugged on his overalls that looked as if they
were going to rip at any minute. She said, "Follow me sir, I want to show
you something". They started to walk to the front door of the
abandoned warehouse where the tall man with the red beard still stood, eyes
locked like an eye to a target. He seemed like the leader, but then
again... they all seemed like the leader. The man looked back at the
mother to see if she had any problem with the new plot of the situation.
The mother nodded her head, walked fast and then joined them by grabbing
her little girl's hand.
Inside the warehouse laid 30 to 40 medal cots.
Side by side, dream by dream, wall to wall they sat with medal feet,
bodies of blankets, and faces made of pillows. The little girl jumped on
one of the beds out of either excitement from a new visitor, or just because
she was a freak athlete, and that's what athletes do, they move, they jump, and
they test the limits. She was defiantly testing the limits of her mother,
because she was soon told to get down. The man entered the next room and
to his surprise found something that would change his life forever. It
was a large bar that stood 30 feet tall, and at least as round and wide as the
whole warehouse. How he didn't see the massive metal behind the house
seemed impossible. It was shinny and long, dense and strong, alien like
was an understatement. The overall man reached out and touched the bar as
if touching his first-born's face. There was a moment of complete silence
while he tried to gather his thoughts, and control his emotions. He had
so many questions, but stayed quiet. Besides the little girl, no one had
spoken yet. Just look, expressions, and gestures were being used thus
far. The only noises were coming from the wind that had now died down,
and the footsteps that had now stopped while admiring the pure shock this lost
man was in. Wings..........wings he thought, with his hand leaned against
the bar and his head down with thought. He looked up at the man with the
red beard and asked.....wings? The tall cold man who seemed to take the
leadership roll nodded his head as to say, "Yes". "Wings
to fly," the little girl said as excited as possible. "If we
lift the bar hard enough everyday, my daddy says the bar will someday fly us
away to the land of bright." She said this while pulling each finger
down as if she has rehearsed it a million times, and once finished she looked
back up and followed with a jump and a clap out of excitement for nailing the
plan the tribe had in front of them. The man looked fast to the bearded
man with a look of excitement as well. The beard of the man nodded up,
then down.
The wings on the bar spread at least 100 feet wide
on each side. On one side of the bar the wing hovered over the black
forest that covered the warehouse and the people who lived in it. The
other wing spread out past the end of the world, or what really was the cliff
that led to the land of bright, where the trees grew tall, grass grew green,
and the ash was replaced by rays of sun and wind of warmth. The mother of
the little girl finally spoke. Her voice was soft like an angel, as her
brown hair now fell straight down on the side of her face from the wind dying
down. "There is only one way to get to the land of gold and bright,
green and happy, cabins of wood and water of clear." She then looked
at the bar......he followed her eyes to the bar.......the quiet stood for a
while as he felt at home, as he felt alive for the first time, as he felt a
part of something, as he felt he finally had something to feel, grab and lay in
the palm of his hands. He looked back at the mother with a smile on his
face. The black ash started to fall from the sky, and the bad day started
to come to night. His eyes wide, his heart beating fast.
She looked at her bloody hands and then smiled at
her beautiful daughter looking up at the overall stranger. She then said
in the most calm and soothing voice he had ever heard in his whole life.
"To train everyday."
Wings 2016
I feel like this is a you coming out of retirement post... Come on Jon you know you want Rio 2016
ReplyDeleteJon- I fully support your retirement. I feel like you are going to do wondrous things with your speaking. The world needs more motivation- I know you are going to make huge differences in the lives of those that get to hear you.
ReplyDeleteBTW- this piece is awesome. I havent read everything youve written (yet) but I do listen to the podcast.